There is nothing wrong in being sad. It is completely okay. You have every right to feel like a total mess and nobody can question you. Do not ever bottle your feelings just because you are afraid of people. You may feel sadness is not leaving you but remember this feeling is temporary.
Masks too hurt at times because they conceal the real you and give you a fake identity. To heal, you need to let your pain out. Cry, scream, express yourself. Do whatever you can but do not sulk. Acknowledge that you are hurt but remember that better things are coming. Every cloud has a silver lining and after every difficulty comes relief.
I know not what the future has in store for me but I’m counting on you. I am actually clueless about your plans and I do not know how the next few months will turn out to be but I’m counting on you to provide me the strength and patience to get through it. I have no idea if you will answer my prayers or if you will throw a curve-ball at me when I am least prepared for it. I don’t know if you wish to give me a break or you have planned a difficult test for me.
Since long I am actually trying to handle everything that I can in the best possible way. I’ve been trying to connect all the dots, trying to visualize the bigger picture and follow the signs you’ve been sending me through, but now I’m tired. My brain is tired. My soul is tired.
I don’t know what the future holds but I’m longing for stability. I’m ready for peace. I know that either way, I’ll be fine and I’ll always count on you. I know you are always there to guide me through the tough times but I’m asking for leeway this time. Let there be a miracle which would lift all the heaviness and burdens.
I’m counting on your generosity, on your forgiveness, on your benevolence and your magnificent surprises. I don’t know what the future holds for me but all I know is that there’s nothing you can’t do or can’t fix. So help me see the brighter picture of life. Help me live!