Yes, there are some connections that are way too strong to be termed as coincidences. These are so organic to our souls, that it would not be an exaggeration if I say that they are a lifetime old.
Frankly speaking, I have always believed that those who love you very strongly in one lifetime, will surely find you in the next but maybe in a different form. Souls are immortal and have a memory of their own and they make use of it to find their way back home in others, who truly never leave. Identify that connection and never let them go.
I know not what the future has in store for me but I’m counting on you. I am actually clueless about your plans and I do not know how the next few months will turn out to be but I’m counting on you to provide me the strength and patience to get through it. I have no idea if you will answer my prayers or if you will throw a curve-ball at me when I am least prepared for it. I don’t know if you wish to give me a break or you have planned a difficult test for me.
Since long I am actually trying to handle everything that I can in the best possible way. I’ve been trying to connect all the dots, trying to visualize the bigger picture and follow the signs you’ve been sending me through, but now I’m tired. My brain is tired. My soul is tired.
I don’t know what the future holds but I’m longing for stability. I’m ready for peace. I know that either way, I’ll be fine and I’ll always count on you. I know you are always there to guide me through the tough times but I’m asking for leeway this time. Let there be a miracle which would lift all the heaviness and burdens.
I’m counting on your generosity, on your forgiveness, on your benevolence and your magnificent surprises. I don’t know what the future holds for me but all I know is that there’s nothing you can’t do or can’t fix. So help me see the brighter picture of life. Help me live!
The synopsis seemed good,
the cover too looked nice,
you opened the book
and began a new life.
You found yourself a new home,
you met some new friends,
you continued reading,
hoping it would never end.
You flipped through the pages,
you read out loud the words
you felt their joy,
their pain and hurt.
The pages cut your fingers,
and the words cut your heart,
Felt as if the author had a knife,
and was tearing your soul apart.
You laughed with the characters,
with them, you cried,
you lived with them, too
And with them, you died.
Friedrich Nietzsche in this statement says that when you go through tough times, you gradually build up the strength for the next painful event. In case of a trauma, it may be quite a comforting thought. But most importantly, how do you feel about this statement? Does it resonate with you, or does it sound cliched?
It can be viewed as a war wound, to heal from a really bad time feeling more powerful and ready to take on the next battle. But with me, that is not quite the case. Especially after rough days and tough times, I find myself weaker and more sad. For me the quote goes like – What doesn’t kill you hurts you incredibly and makes you vulnerable and pathetic.
At times, it happens that a few tough situations help in becoming a stronger person. But the really big things, the things that totally altered my life without my consent, the loss of my most loved ones, the horrible experience of being desperately lonely or panic-stricken with anxiety and such other times have bought nothing empowering in me. I’ve felt my heart shatter into pieces and my soul dry, but I never felt stronger after those days. I was only happy that they were over.
I personally feel that strength doesn’t come from life’s worst moments, rather it comes from the best. Whenever I am loved, I feel strong. I find strength in the times when I’ve been most generous and caring. I find strength when I am able to deal well with the bad days. But I feel weak when I face those gloomy bad days. So with me, what doesn’t kill me, does not make me stronger, rather it makes me more weaker and snatches the entire energy out of my existence.
A lot many times it happens that you simply want to forget someone. But that doesn’t happen. You might have moved on, it is an entirely different concept, but it doesn’t mean you have forgotten the person. You do not forget them. They stay in the back of your head all the time. The memories may blur with time but you can not forget them who taught you how to love.
Such people live with you forever. They are a part of your existence, a part of you. With time the wounds may heal, you may not see tears in your eyes when you see their pictures or hear their name. But in the back of your mind, you know they still exist and will do forever. You gradually accept the fact that you cannot forget them and you won’t and you begin living with it. That is a name which has been printed on your soul, stitched in your veins and is running in your blood.
Have you ever seen those Mountain waterfalls? There is something about them which always leaves me in awe. They’re so mysterious, because they seem to be flowing out of nowhere. When you’re just driving past by, you can’t see their point of origination. And that’s what makes them so mesmerising.
For me, they simply seem to flow out of the heart of the mountain, as if the mountain was so full of its own soul, that it had to let it all well forth, unabashed, unstructured, free. How beautiful it is to be free, no? Free falling, free feeling, free flowing, yet inherently rooted, belonging but not bound. This, I believe is the best feeling ever! You know you belong somewhere but you are still under no boundations of any sort.
With love comes the fear of loss. The undeniable fear of losing your loved one. Just the thought of not having them by your side one day hangs heavy like a grey cloud above your head. The thought that certain events may unfold which will lead to parting ways causes an immense pain inside you just like a burning sensation.
With Love comes vulnerability, trust, loyalty and the possibility that these things mean taking pieces from your soul and giving it over to the person you love. With love you become aware of the fact that losing them will eventually cause you relentless pain. You know that if they leave you, a huge part of you, will leave your side too.
But at the same time, with loving someone comes smiles, laughs and happy tears which you will remember for lifetime. You feel an incredible peace, a peace, that you know you will never be able to find again. With loving someone comes serenity, contentment, understanding and a friendship which will never leave you feeling cold. No matter how far you go, you know you will never forget those days.
With love comes fear, sure but it is also accompanied by a fearlessness that you didn’t know you could summon. There comes a happiness which stays, and believe me when I say that, because it does stay!
It is not always advisable to wait for the right time when you want to confess or say something to someone. This time may be the right time and it’s just that probably you couldn’t figure it out. I feel that somewhere in a parallel universe there exists a record of all that you left unsaid. All that you backspaced and things you did not say. Somewhere those things have been segregated as per dates, just like these Whatsapp chat backups.
Those words that left you sour and empty and curdled your soul. All the things that you typed in clumsily over the phone in the middle of the night, masking all your desperation and dejection. It is all probably there in a parallel universe. These conversations exist in plenty and one day you will finally have access to all of those accumulated manuscripts. May be then you will realize how different life would have been if you had said all that you ever wanted to.
Life is unpredictable and we are swimmers in the ocean of uncertainty. Instead of being stuck in a whirlpool of confusions, speak up today.
It is quite strange how one day some one just stops loving you all of a sudden. They decide never to be in touch with you and never coming back to you. All of a sudden all you have is despair and a cloud of sadness enveloping you. This hits straight like a sting and fucks up your entire being. Your soul is filled with remorse as you know you couldn’t keep them with you.
When you feel some one no longer loves you , you live in denial. You lie to yourself that may be they will be back with you and their memories haunt you and make you sick. May be you never thought you would witness a day where every beat of your heat would make you aware of your loneliness. But you have to let them go. No matter how bad you want to be with them. Life will go on and I hope you never blame yourself for it. When someone stops loving you, they lose a person who would give them every ounce of their existence and you lose someone who may be never deserved you in the first place. It surely aches but one day you will feel better.
“Ishq kiya dil o jaan se bhi zada tumhe,
Nahi andaaza tha tum sirf dard ban k reh jaoge.
Krte na ye khata fir hum,
agar pta hota k tum is pyar ko kabhi smjh hi na paoge. ”
Soul mates may be your relative, lover, friends or anyone who helps you become a better version of your own self. Twin flames on the other hand represent a love which is free from the shackles of human conditions. Your life is entirely different once you meet your twin flame. The moment your eyes first meet, you can start feeling life. This person touches unknown depths of your heart and soul and you form an instant connection. You are bound to meet your soulmate sooner or later in life but in the case of a twin flame, not many people meet them, although everyone has a twin flame.
Twin flame love is about everything except romance. You are built to evolve with each other and trigger the deep wounds that you didn’t know existed. At times you may feel that you’re losing your mind and your heart has unconditional love for your twin. Yet you know you can’t be together and this brings the greatest pain you’ve ever felt. At times, it may also happen that twin souls come together for a short span of time, only to part ways and say goodbye. When you are with your twin flame it’s not the traditional romantic love rather it’s the liberated, free love that exists when you don’t lay down any conditions on the other person. You gift your twin flame as well as yourself with freedom, as you do not curb the feelings for him/her and never doubt the true love that exists between the two of you.
You can easily relate it with the dance of fire when you feel attracted to each other’s light, but then your ego fears that it would get burnt, so you run away. Meeting your twin is not a cakewalk. There is no guarantee that you’ll ever be together. Basically it is something which is beyond understanding. Neither distance nor time can change the magnitude of your connection that you have with your twin flame.
Your twin flame loves you unconditionally. They sometimes return in your life to serve a purpose, to trigger the unconscious stuff that is already within you. When you try to suppress your feelings for your twin (which you can only for a short while after a hell lot of effort), you in other words cut yourself off from unconditional love. And that is the only reason why it never feels good. So, it is better to set everything aside, stop thinking about some things which are beyond control, relax and let the things flow at their own pace.
A twin flame is one who is your other self, a part of your soul. To read more about your twin soul, click here.
If you are still hesitant if you can ever forget your twin flame or you feel the answer differs from person to person, its not at all like that. There is one universal answer which is – NO, you cannot forget your twin flame. He/she is a part of you, and to be honest you never forget something that which has its existence in you.
No matter where you are, no matter what you may be doing, your twin flame is always there at the back of your mind. Its just like a numb pain which is with you all the time, stabbing you every second yet it makes you feel alive. You exist because of this pain. They may be far physically yet they exist in every breath you take, in every second that goes by. In your subconscious mind, they are present in everything you do and the best part is you never felt this way before. No person ever helped you experience this emotional high in spite of being miles apart and separated.
You may feel like they are close to you and communicating via some unknown telepathy signs. You can see their name at some places, every small thing about them would remind you of them, you would see parts of their phone numbers , their birthdays etc at different times and different places. No matter who they are with, twin flames can never forget each other. They may be with their life partner but that feeling would never be complete as a part of them would always be missing somewhere no matter how happy they try to be.
Finally, one day you will certainly feel happy that you loved him. Because it’s one in a lifetime kind of love, you loved like you never have loved before in your life and maybe you never will. And you will be thankful to your twin, that you lived such an amazing never ending love.
As far as I am concerned, I tried to forget him on every level but it was beyond my reach. I failed miserably and so I gradually learned to live with the truth of this connection. Now at times, whenever a synchronicity emerges, I smile, thank the universe for bringing him in my life.
So today while surfing the net, I came across a very interesting concept. Meeting your twin flame! Of course, for those who are not aware of it just like I was a few mins back, a Twin Flame is someone with whom you are always connected spiritually as you are parts of the same soul. Also called a mirror soul, he/she may be the person you connect with not just emotionally but even spiritually. God took one soul and split it into two. As a result, there are two individuals with the other half of a soul. When they meet each other on earth, an instant connection is bound to happen.
Let us now not confuse between soulmate and twin flame. A soulmate is one with whom you have a romantic relationship. It is not always the case with a twin flame. You can only have one Twin Flame ever. Everyone has a Twin Flame, it just depends on your destiny and lifelines when they choose to walk into your life.
In my case, I knew him instantly and I needed no reason why I felt as if he could see through my very soul. Twin Flame turns your whole life upside down. Invariably there is always a reason for everything, a reason you meet someone, a reason you fall in love, a love which is its own – one of a kind, one which you’ve never known before and probably which you never will again. When your twin flame leaves, it tears your heart apart and you feel the pain right in your very soul. You move on but deep within you know that you will never get over them and no matter what you will always love them unconditionally.
It goes without saying that nothing, I repeat Nothing can separate Twins as they are a gift from God. Your twin flame will always be with you without any beginning or end, always constant in your thoughts, in your mind, in your actions, in your life.
No person is with you forever physically. And to keep it clear, twin flames are not soulmates. So obviously they will not be physically present by your side forever. But twin flames can never be forgotten. They are always present in your thoughts. It’s okay to cry sometimes when you miss them but do not and I repeat DO NOT stay involved in the pain and remain “addicted” to it. You may not realise it but you don’t quite get over it as such, but the best way is to get on with it is to be the best version of your own self.