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Staying will Hurt but so will Forgetting!

Its the hardest thing in the world to know everything about a person and then trying to forget it. All the vivid details. How they eat an egg roll with great interest. How they want a sookha golgappa with only dahi at the end. How they only liked their chai when head bursts with work. Random stories and tales they once told you .Why they think chapp is one of the best things to have and how green chillies are the worst when they come in the mouth. What makes them smile and how certain memories show up as ghosts in the graveyards of their eyes . Why love for them happens everyday is difficult to understand . 


It’s like living in their universe and realising they are the sun. 
There is a void between remembering and forgetting and all of us just hang there .You keep waiting that someday this wouldn’t hurt anymore and maybe they will come back. It’s a thing we human do fantasize Because reality is a cesspool of tragedies and living here is a nightmare . So you wish upon a shooting star that they come back but they never do .

 Forgetting sometimes hurts more than leaving . 
In our memories it never ends we just stay there wishing dreaming and laughing forever. 
Science talks about the concept of Muscle 
memory. Our muscles always remember moments. Your arms will always bend when you see them , your right eye will twitch when they are near and your lips will always mould themselves to say i love you. You will extend your right hand but there will not be a hand to hold yours. So you will keep waving it mid air suspended like half fulfilled promises. All of this is a signal that our bodies were designed to save and store things and when you try to forget something you are distrupting the equilibrium . 
Maybe its the universe screaming that staying will hurt but so will forgetting .

ShadesofLife

Posted in The Untold Story

Beyond Words

Before you decide to love me, know that I will always love you and I mean it because I never learned how to unlove someone,

Before you decide to love me, know that I am very sensitive. At time I am moody too, so when I feel low, just don’t leave. Simply stay by my side and be with me.

Before you decide to love me, please understand that I will always be there for you, no matter how hard you try to push me away. I will not leave because my love for you is stronger than anything else.

Before you decide to love me, note that I am a person who loves long hugs, deep talks, long drives and warm cuddles.

Before you decide to love me, remember that I do not sparkle and shine. I trip over words and I over think. I don’t have it all figured out in my brains.

But I love hard, I love until I am empty and it’s pure and unadulterated.

ShadesofLife